I printed out a new 2017 calendar. January was sporadic. There are no X's in February.
After a merciless week, I have finally sat down at my desk on campus to work on my thesis (after hearing for the last couple weeks from my advisor that I'm lagging behind).
I think I'm going to go ahead and mark on my calendar the days that I have sat down in front of my data, cried, and put it away. I think shedding tears over your thesis should count as productive days.
I started out on Elle King Radio on Pandora. After having far too much bitter coffee from Peet's downstairs, the upbeat, sassy nature of the station was too much to handle. I switched to Ray LaMontagne Radio. Shawn Mendes was whining for mercy. Thumbs down. The rain pattered against the window and all 173 issues with my thesis came crashing down on me.
"As I'm Leaving" (David Grey) came on. If anyone has seen Ladder 49, that's where they're having the funeral for John Travolta's character and it's raining, his wife is grieving, it's just really sad. But the song is actually beautiful.
I grieved for John Travolta for a couple minutes until my advisor showed up and took the rest of my scotch for his meeting with the dean.
Zero progress on my thesis. But plenty of tears shed.
My notes are spread out across my desk. I have no idea what to focus on.
Sacramento is not showing northeast wind events. I can hardly remember why it is I'm supposed to care. I don't even know how to Google what it is I'm supposed to do to fix my plots that a visiting professor said were "meaningless". You have to rotate the axis into the winds...
Maybe I shall make a flow chart of how to progress with my thesis. A road map if you will.
Or Google a new scotch to try.
